Not Everything Is Fun

When I started to join BASHAR........
Ya Allah I loved it so much
I was truly happy and really enjoyed it
love the kids, work to be done, everything

Then, my teacher asked me to be constructor at the in front for aerobic exercise
Ya Allah! a "Naqibah Leader" to be at the front of hundred students for the exercise??????
no! I refused! definitely! but.....
she got mad with me and she said that she had done everything to raise me for the "PKR"
but it looked like I didn't appreciate it
oh! I did not want it!!!!!
confused! to care about my reputation or my teacher's heart??????? no!!!!!!!

until....
K.mimi asked me whether I could handled it or not?
but I loved it! seriously! it hard for me to let it go away just like that....

then....
I tried my best to become a good leader.....
but......
it hard to make everyone satisfied!
it hard!!
really hard!!!!
I just could cry when think about it
jealous with "PKB" which loved by everyone in the "BASHAR"......
but it didn't mean that i hate her because me too. just liked everyone

however,
nothing could change their mind on me
even they didn't.....
but I still love them......
sincerely!